Unfair!!

grh..why can't the world be...fair!?! What's wrong with daughter in the family?? haix... sometimes i just hate the idea of old tradition about son more impt...what's so bad about girls?!?! No girls, how to have boYs!?! haiz...

can anyone tell me how you solve all these things? I'm beginning to have wrong mindsets sooN~

whY!?!

haiz...why did I do that?? WHY!?! I waNt to turn back time, to as early as poSsiBLe!! I didn't want it this way, why did i have to choose it this way...stuPid Melvin!!! why..WHY!!!

I just hate myself...why can't i just do and follow what i'm thinking sometimes? Only to regret so much more after it is over?? DarN!! Blame who? No one else!! Can't I just understand? If my surrounding is dark, it's me who didn't on the lights! If my fish died, it's me who didn't took care of it! If I didn't got what i want, it's ME who didn't work for it..get it Mel!!! ...It's not the short circuit, it's not the bad water condition, it's not the others that's in fault..it's yoU You YOU(me!)!!! so, if you (me) got any scolding...you deserve it!!

sigh, pretty pointless now~ stupid Melvin!! No one can save you anymore... ...

Sorry everybody...just realised something about myself...learnt a pretty important lesson today~ that's good isn't it? Yeapz...it is! =)

-MmX-

NOT ME!!!

Grh..tell you something, i really hate who i am in schoOl today!! I really hate myself whenever i felt myself that way! It's something i cannot explain also...It's a feeling where i can't be bothered with anything! I'll feel that something is awfully wrong, but just can't find out what's that! It really irritates me, I'll lost my smile and..."me!" I'll start to avoid my group of brothers, just wish they don't come near me...because, i'm really afraid i will do something nasty to them! I never want to do that to hurt them k! I really hate my "this" self!!!

What happened? let's take today for example...i shouted at Shi Ming and even some 'nasty-words' followed too....That's really not me!!! It's my the other self whenever i got this 'strange' mood! It's not as if i have Pms? I'm a guy! My sincere apologies, brothers...especially Shi Ming...when i shouted, i couldn't control myself then...Just thinking bout' it makes me fuMe!! Stupid MelviN!!

Nvm la...forget it...just hate my this self jiu dui le...So, take note...whenever you see my face got change or seem uninterested in anything...make sure you check how i reply 1st...if you find it's "not-me" right, just avoid...i don't want to get any of you bad...Shi Ming already kenna liao...i don't want any1 next...ok??? and...don't worry...i don't that way everytime la...hahaz...i also don't know why i felt like that today...this seldom happen to me too...don't worry k..what's more, after some long time of "self-argument" with this "other self" of mine, i'll feel better, and return to mE!! =)

k la...just hope you guys understand k? Thanks lotz...(stiLl wondering why i felt this way today too, what's the things that's "missing") hehez...nvm la...i'm back~ =P!!

-MmX-

Nat. Library~

well~ i just found out that the NLB had opened since 2 days ago.. hahaz...i didN't knew about it, Worsestill, it is loacated at a place where i go everyweek and i didn't notice it!! Stupid yea? I still thought "who so stupid go and build such a huge Structure, and right in a place where it seems to be quite 'difficult to locate"...now i know, the government and a place where it's supposed to be used by many!

Hahaz...very sad leh, to think i was 'extorted' by 2 girls yesterday who looks like nothing but Ah lians~!! Where got pPl ask for donations dressed up until like go gala like tt!! haiyo~ Still act pity, speak soft soft...*eWlz* 2 of them somemore! No license, no logo, no nothing! Just a stupid pink clipboard and some sort of a namelist?? I saw only 3-4 names?? then..all donated $10? omg!! Then, when the other gal found out tt i "hao qi fu", she also approached me...now, 2 on 1~ wth!

I even tooK off my earphone to listen lehz...so...they talk talk talk, until finally they asked..."Ke yi juan $5 ma?" actually i already suspect since i 1st saw them already...but, k la k la, since my mood not bad, i woudn't care less what they are up to... When they were explaining i took out my wallet and look for some cash... During explanation, I heard mumbling...but when i say "$2...na!", they immediately change volume liaoz.."wah lao~ $2 bu gou la? ren jia zhi sao juan $5 lehz!" grh...my mind was like: I'm not working, got donate $2 not bad already lor...nvm la..."hao ren zhuo dao di", so i took out my wallet again...but this got me soOo disgusted! The second girl came beside me now...i opened my wallet, then she go peek!! *Disgusting! idiotic!! Freak!! grh..i was so mad! Inside got so many private things and can't she just...*EXCUSE ME!!* Grh!! what's more, she looked and went..."theRe!! got $10!" Next, you know what? She reached for the $10 notes and pulled it out, lucky i turn my wallet away, and gave them a $5 note instead!! *that $10 was for something else much important than this, you @#$%^!! - hehez..that was what went through my mind that moment!*

After that, i gave them the money, they just turned and walked away...i was still standing there in the middle of the walk-way and like.." huh? aren't you gonna give me sth in return? a flag? a receipt? or at least a "thank-you" for goodness sakE!! ok, i turned myself to fate..."i'm really 'lucky' yea?" so...as i continued walking and returning the earphones to my ear i was repeating, meditating and chanting to myself..."forgive and forget, forgive and forget, forgive and forget... ... ..." Well, Melvin, you must be toO nice a guy! or should i say...foLly enough to believe someone you don't even know at all! hahaz...Fate, fate~

nvm la, shouldn't judge books by its cover right? who knows they are really helping those orphans out (according to what they said) hahaz..if that's true then my $5 should be worth it...
k la...back to schoOl already, so sleepy for a monday! hahaz...niteX everybody!!

Physics~ NooOOo~!!!

omg...i hate this afterNooN!! Yeap, it is our phsics practice paper...and, i forgot all my formulas last minute!! That shouldn't be the case!! i went to study descriptions, and explanation...kAoz...don't know whether to cry or laugh lor!! Hate myself~ well..cannot turn back time liaoz!! sobz soBz~

i think, today..as long as it's b4 and during sch..i just find it very sway for me la...
1st - Nearly overslept
2nd - Brushed too hard tt when i spit out the tooThpaste, it's fresh red!
3rd - Stayed in toilet too long, i think i was 5 minutes late for my usual procedure
4th (and which i hated MOST!!) - the damn bus was full + late!
5th - Met alvin late...
6th - Almost slept in class...
7th - Didn't stick the IN newspaper to jotterbk (last min)
8th - Got sort of 'said' by Ms ng...
skip...
14th - I foRgot my formuLaz!! booO hoOO! greatest regret!! studied all wrong de~

k la..think positive...at least, it was much better off after sch when i left tt stupid compound?? hahaz...not very wonderful, still better than b4 tt!! grh...

hehez...oh shit!! i'm feelind the itch in my hands again!! they're tingling!! kekex..BB tomorrow(today)!! what more?? i may receive a call tmr(today)!!! hehez... a wonderfuL call!! kekez... can't wait for tmr...bb! bb! BB!!! So gonna thrash others tmr(today)!! muahahAHz!! here i come!! P.O.X!!!

okok...don't want to say liaoz..so tired...hahaz....may recieve *unusual testimonial for some ppl~ beware!!* hehez...=P the enDz!

-MmX-

Pe? no more...

Wah lao!! I'm sure the 11 of us would agree with this!! Why can't you spare a thought for us!!! We're still Students!! we still need fun! In fact, we need MORE time!! Can't you just squeeze in two small periods in the time-table?? Who care's about the ministry? It's not as if the ministry will prevent us from learning? omG!!

Grh!! talking bout it makes me F.U.M.E!!We will no longer have P.E! Instead, they're substituting morning jog with the fitnesS club students for our 'fun-to-be' lessons!! It's not as if you can play with your beloved classmates for just that 1 hour?? Jog?? haiz...it's not that bad though, it's just the pe that we can't participate!! grh...stupid sch! (oOpx~! =X) okok, i know...just few more weeks then we no need care bout's this anymore rite?? fine, fine..i'm not gonna care bout those laughter and joy in the foyer/quadrangle yea? ...FnF!! haiz... watta do, extra subject? extra sacrfice~

Another sad thing, Ms wee was replaced by Mrs Yoong. I thought change teacher already (the new relief teacher), but then...no change...wah lao~!! It's not that i'm complaining about her meaningful teaching method was not useful, it's just her character i detests so much!! whole class would agree to that! E.g: During one specific lesson, she was SO kind to us, so good...and that's her 1st day... 2nd day? total change!! she shouted at us (unreasonably), take for darren who just sat on the table while discussing our mind-map, she just came in and gave darren a piece of her mind. It's true tt darren was wrong, but...we wasn't told in the 1st place!? She shouted at him! Xiao ye was also not spared...3 of us explained to her already, she chosed to turn him down...wth! nvm la...we knew it's her "...", but...haix...tell ya sth..i'm beginNing to miss MisS wee!! bOo hoO!! i told Honkey this, his eyes widened and hugged me!! (GAY!!) then he say.."S.A.M.E!!boo hOo" kekex...poor us~

okok, forget that...Physics tomorrow...i think the physics lesson would be the best among the other 2! Instead of changing teacher and removed lessons, we had Mr Dawood to assist Mr Azzam in handling our class! We also had more lesson than before! that's the besT!!

NExt...hehez...got back 2 tests again!! I'm so satisfied with both marks, however, i know i can improved more on one of them...I got b3 for that! i should have gotten better, but i left that section out during revision...if not! i could have gotten 2 more marks...A1!! (stupid jovina, got 2 more marks then me, then skipped 1 grade of mine! (me 22/32-b3, she 24/32-a1!) hahaz...sWayz!! The other test was P.O.A! Grh..i didn't put the posittion of the particulars in order! because of tt..i lost 1.5 marks! if not..i would have gotten fulL!! Nvm...cannot be complacent...what i have is what i deserved, is enough for me! =)

haiyo...now reaching home quite late lez...afraid that i cannot pei my family members lor...how? haiz...lucky they don't reach home tt early oso..phEw...felt so guilty about leaving my parents behind while i had fun outside...grh, hate this feeling!! When they're off frm work, i'm either in sch or got a date or meeting, otherwise i'm free to stay at home and they got last min work...how sad!! nvm la...i understand..it's partly my fault oso...( why am i mentioning this? because i 4got my father took off today, and i returned hm frm sch late...due to 'after consultation' work...)

k la k la, getting long on my post...gtg!! byez~!!

-MmX-

I finalLy got iT!! Don't laugh la~ =P

mUahAhaz!!! Finally! I'm so contented today, hehez...i finally understood about the "Nutrition in Mammals" ( a chapter that have been thought last year 1st semester...sloW hor? =P well, at least i'm glad i knew it now then later? =P=P!! okok, let me revise...it is... ...

Proteins (proteases) -> Polypeptides
Polypeptides (trypsin) -> Amino acids
Amino acids (toxicated) -> Urea (non-toxic)

hehehEz...so proud of myself! i'm starting to get the hang of it! hopE it's not toO late still?? However, i still find my only hatred+weakness! Essay questions!! i hate it soOoOoo mUch!! haiz...watta do, if only i can just answer these questions in point form? haiyo...hate describing things, especially experiments. that's why i love it so much when teacher says, " you can draw a diagram to show the answer..." hehEHez~!! =P

well, timetable's changed? however, i had not take it down yet, hope it's not starting from tomorrow onwards right??

hehez...so eviL, made someone shouted/screamed today!! thanks to brian, ho yin and me!! Anybody like "xiao qiang?" or should i say, cockroach? ho ho ho~! pass pass pass, eventually to Brian who showed it in front of jovina and then..." AHHH~!!" kekex, she was actually dodging from ho yin and me, coz she thought we were holding on to it, who knew, she chose to stand beside Brian and...taa da~!

hMm...mdm Su not in school today, did the worksheet on Nutrition...see! thanks to that i learnt so much things today! (tt i didn't got it in the past) then, return to consultation, not really to have peace and quiet but to laugh my heads out! i reallY cannot tahan his jokes leh!! he always can think of anything and anytime..and i mean, anything and anytime!! seriOus!! very cute onez!! sure laugh till buay tahan de~! hahaz!! *tetris!!!*

oh yah!! found out i appeared in 3 so-called big photo in one page of the sch magazine lor!! so pai seh!! One is S.V.A ( took in library), one is Harnessing youth award (outside hall, road to Dnt studio) and school's recruitment drive last yr's december, in bio lab when i was explaining some bio stuff to some primary school students! so pai seh!! i was explaining to them until i sweat, and they go put it in the mag!! omg!! the perspiration was so obvious lor!! so pai seh!! i hate the euditor! grh..somemore mdm su was behind me...hahaz....she so blur! Remembering then, she nearly confused me that time...i explained correctly, then she said i was wrong...hahaz!! then she pai seh...kekex~!! *Crickets were fun!*

hMmM...conclusion for today i learnt more new things today! EurekA~! kekex...continue Melvin, continue!! ; )

Christian?

Alright guys...today was some sort "boring"? lucky got the evening to spur me on! =D

Saturday morning, as usual...basketball with same old friends! Unfortunately...the weather brought us down...as it got heavier, we had to stop the 5 on 5...how sad! Heez~ I didn't knew i could score that good then? MuAhahaz~! Btw, i've learnt sth today!! hoHohO~! I'm so cleveR!! kekex...*bhb*

okok...back to topic, kaoz...didn't know vincent's new home was so great...swimming pool, recreation lounge, "special" facilities and even steam rooM! how coOlz~ must go and try it out after El oral in August~...Got that guys? let's get some fun then! hehez...provided if Vincent allow la...=) Then alvin and zhi yong...so stubBorn onez...tolD them their outfit is unacceptable for the swimming pool already, they refused to listen...haiyoZ...in the end kennA chased out~ how saD!! hahaz...then...tt's all lor, me, kai xiong and ho yin left earlier...my, i was really tired!! tak bolEk tahan!!!

reached home, first thing go finish my geog~ so many things to write - and i hate that! afteR that, got some sleepy spells then slp lor...I DID set the loUD lOud alarm! Stupid me go pressed it, and i slept on... stilL in my sweet dreams until... ..."Bin arh! What you wanna have for dinner? it's 5+ already...i need to prepare..." wah lao!! i actually jumped up from my bed mAn!! kekex...from sleepy to "shocked?" i overslept!! hahaz...my grandma was shocked by my actions...kekex...so cute~ =P imMediately rushed to bathe...prepare myself...go 'da ban da ban' then...ofF i went...stiLl, can't catch up...stupid me...i was late~ indeEd late...you can't just rely on puBlic transport sometimes...not even taxis!

yeap...then entered the church(darn~ i took the entire travel time to ponder about the destination...where the helL am i walking aimlessly!?!) hahaz...then explored here, explored there...until 'someone' tell me it was 2 stops after tjc~ omg, that sure helpeD! (did you know what was the previous clue? - "take bus 12, after it turn...look for a red+white chimney") omg~ can you ever locate a red and white chimney on a moving vehicle?? what's more...the bus turned a total of 7 times!! hahaz...i'm so lucky!! phEw - I didn't lost my way~

reached! only to be surroUnded by so-called "holy spirits" i just don't get it~ you'lL feel somewhat uneasy when you're like visiting church? i don't feel comfortable...ewl, hate tt feeling! nvm...got used and listened to a speaker...welL, he's indeed a good speaker~ i like to hear him talk and present himself! so cool...humorous, serious, meaningful...he's really iNteresting! still, to the end...he wanted more ppl to "follow the god"...i told myself as those people who wanted to convert walked out of the room..."do they really want to?" coz...their face was like, being "forced"? aiyah..i don't know la...comPlicated~!!!

then...go hoMe lor...hehez...Although public transports are unreliable...i still must say, i like to take buses! hehex..=) la la la~! *whistle*

k la k la, abit toO long..btw...can you guYs tag sth about the ongoing nkF news?? I realLy wanna noe hOw you guys felt abt that incident...can??? pLeasE do so!! thanks!! The enDz~!

-MmX-

Mt Listening Compre~

hey hey~ today's the 15/07~! according to my time-table, it's the O'levels Mt Listening compre..interesting yea? hMmm...i hope it's ok? it was broadcasted through radio~ fm 92.4 i think? The papers start at 3pm, and they wanted us to report at 2.20 for god's sake! haiyo..sat in my class for 40 minutes, doing nth!! coOl eh? BorinG!! just played with my beloved mech. pencil~! hehez...=P

hmMm...true, the 'stress / nervousness' was there the first 10 mins...but, as time went by...all seEmed to have relax? we even talked! hahaz...then the CE came, a strong-build guy...he spoke so deeply...toO 'man' liao...kekex, when he came in, the class so quiet~ only hear the rain and the fan, cooL eh?

ok la...the texts, shld be 'nt so diff', it's just the mcq choices that was like...tricky? hehex...

okok..what's b4...sth i'm reallY mad at...they changed the time-table?? NO!! they didn't even touched our class one, even though we needed a change badly!! There's no bio class in both the previous and present time-table!! it's really getting the bio class on the nerve! Stupid managment!! nvm nvm..fnf fnf!! =)

wah lao...i just realised that teachers can change too!one teacher of ours were talking to us so nicely just few days b4...and today she's shouting at some of us like nobody's business...real bad eh...lucky i'm safe~ if not...i don't think i'm gonna enjoy her lessoN that much afterall? hahaz..true eh? but...back to point, her teaching's really not bad..cannot defy that...=), stiLl waiting for Ms Wee!!! hehez...now the class is beginning to miss her already!! hahaz...see, that's wat happen when you got good and cute teachers!

hehez...yesterday, we helped decorate the bio lab, with...bugs and eyeballs! hahaz...cute eh! i put those eye-balls...so cuTE!! especially when they bounced! i played it on the tables...so fuN!!mdm suriati oso follOwed...haHaz!! then, got someone saboh yun ru, put a cockroach into her bag...then she screamed, even to the point of tears flowing...hahaz...so much fuN!!

back to today...gRh!! hate myself...always being slOw!! but...come to think of it..i think i made the right choIce! don't regret Melvin~! it's a good joB well done!! (hehez..praising myself)...

oh yah, btw...i've decided to change my blogskin, i've been fixing it for long, b4 my previous com broke dwn...hahaz...please don't mind if it's badly done? hahaz...that's all~!!

-MmX-

Computer's recovered!!!

HeY Hey everyone! I'm back after so long!! Finally...i'm seeing the yahoo page in my house again after such a long period!! hahaz!! so happy!!

okay, quite a big price to pay la...got myself a new dsktop, not toO bad afterall...quite good oso, got myself a faster internet as well...=) however, something's still missing...no sound yet, haven't install the sound-card i think, so i just transfer to my old com to listen lor...

Omg! Jay's song is so nice!! "piao yi"...kekex..we change some parts! " De piao, de piao, dou fu lan diao~!" hahahaz!!

ok...today's the first monday since the timetable changed...well, with addition of consultation...CoLDz!! quite surprise lehz...didn't know sch library provide 'hot chocolate'...hahaz...can say me swaku la...but i remembered teachers saying no sweet drinks or food outside canteen mahz, what more the library? nvm la...their idea oso, next time i purposely go spill one cup on the books, let's see whether they'll ban it or not! =P la la la~ who's with me? =P

alright...my days are pretty good, thanks to everyone around me! so fortunate~! hehez..esp when my com's back! just needa change the keyboard and mouse(quite old ones) ...which to chooSe neh? hmMmmm

k la k la, nth much anyway...wiLl blog soon~! cya pEepz and thanks for watching! ;-)
-MmX-